Heartbreak. It’s such a lonely feeling and love is the cure-all. The medicine that makes a smile appear on your face and an increase in dopamine become present. It gets your brain’s reward system going and makes falling in love with someone a pleasurable experience, and euphoric. But take that love away, and you are …
So today I am writing about what I've been going through the last few years. It's full of change and renovation of the mind, body, and spirit. Do I worry about posting my truths? Yes. But it's not like I'm the only one who has to go through these things before, or are trying to get through them now. Hopefully this can help people understand where I've been and why my attitude is so much more different.
Many who have experienced being a relationship with a narcissist can attest to the fact that many of us experience PTSD after the fact. We have to relearn how to love ourselves, realize many of the lies the N had told us were simply untrue and, above all, capture and hold onto the idea that we are not crazy. The narcissist will use gaslighting to make us feel like we are absolutely bonkers!
A Poem by Caroline Nelson Unrequited love Narcissistic kidnapping Of the heart, mind, soul That is aloof and stands away From any chance of acceptance Like two magnets pushing away from each other It tears pieces from the heart Selections to pin on its wall Success stories of when it broke someone Never offering to …
Some people don’t try anything if they aren’t sure they will succeed, but successful people perform the activities unsuccessful people are too afraid to try. GO FOR IT! Put those positive affirmations you have saved up on a pinterest board somewhere in visible site to offer inspiration even when you are off our electronic devices.
(Post originally written in January 2018.) I will continuously be working on retreating from my melancholy moods. It is a constant struggle. I wish I could be like a cat and just “be” everyday only to sleep and “be” again the next day. I have my struggles, but I persevere. There are a couple of …
I don’t want everyone to think I’ve given up on writing. I’m relearning to focus since I’ve got so much to say (It's my story and I'm sticking to it). I will upload something soon.
Sorrento was…well…BELLISIMA! Surreal. I felt as if I was part of Homer’s odyssey and listened intently for the Sirens as our ferry pulled into port. The sheer cliffs were impressive, with the homes and hotels sitting precarious atop, beckoning us to visit and admire their views from their respective balconies.
Sometimes, I felt like I was two different people. One person who wants to laugh and go out and enjoy the world, and another who curls up in bed, draws the curtains, and doesn't answer her phone. When I was in an episode, I could feel the two personalities fighting each other inside my head.
Our time in Orvieto was a true opportunity to really observe the culture, buildings, and the people, without being rushed. We spent a lot of time just relaxing, closing our eyes, and listening to the town around us. It felt like the first time we just stopped and soaked it all in. We were in ITALY!!
Why Not Caroline 